Losing my mind....

Yesterday I was a little crampy, but it went away. Today I'm even more crampy, and it's lasted most of the day. You know how there are things you just know? Here's one: I'm gonna get my period. I can feel it. Here's two: I don't think he's in there. I don't know what to do. I wish hubby was here. I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do without him if this little guy doesn't make it. And I can't even communicate with him. I'll have to write him a letter and tell him about it, which will reach him days after it really happens. It just seems like a really impersonal way to tell someone that kinda news.