Freakin' exhausted, but loving every minute of it!!!

I woke up this morning and realized this wasn't a dream. This is the happiest I've ever been in my life. In 24 hours, my whole perspective on life, my whole way of thinking, has changed. Being a mother is my life dream, and I'm finally on my way to realizing that dream.

I sent hubby a letter telling him the good news. I wish I could see his face when he opens it. We've been waiting for this for so long. It sucks that he can't be here with me right now, but it's all good. As long as my little man is nice and comfortable in there, that's all that matters.

I used to feel really fucked up that I couldn't get pregnant the same way almost everyone else could. I used to feel like there was something terribly wrong with me, like I wasn't good enough. Like I wasn't a real woman. I used to hate the fact that I had to do IVF. Not anymore. I've come to realize that it doesn't matter. I've reached the same result as those who are not fertility-challenged, and I'm damn proud of it.

I love you, my little cocoa puff. Hang in there. I can't wait to see you!!! ♥